Miguel's mom,
Wow! What to say. I guess just be honest really. I too have felt jealous that someone was sucessful at suicide. It was a co-worker of mine. He had even taken a suicide prevention class with me. It was only 3 months after I had been hospitalized for my own plan. In the end, I had to help pack up all his belongings and help send them to his mom. The whole time being torn about how it was such a tragedy and the jealousy. He really seemed to be a great guy and no one knew he was even thinking that way. So for me, I understand your feelings as hard as they are.

As for supporting the family, only do what you feel you can do. Period. My nephew committed suicide at the age of 13. So young they are. I personally could not attend the funeral, because I was so angry at his foster mom for letting it happen, I would have done her some serious damage if I had seen her. My sister understood. We can only do what we can. No more. Maybe, if you can, you can support the family in another way, by maybe taking by a meal so they don't have to cook. That way they know you care. Just a suggestion. My thoughts are with you as you and your family process this difficult issue.