are you kidding? well, there's a huge difference when one came from abuse and is afraid to do anything vs someone who didn't experience abuse and can do anything he/she put their minds to it. confident people do get nervous and experience anxiety, have they ever lived their lives in fear for a long long time? that is what i have been experiencing all my life!

so, im not talking about a simple omg, i don't know what to do with my anxiety attack. no, it's not like that. like i said constant fear of people better yet speaking. i became a mute a long time ago to the point when i only spoke when spoken to and didn't wanna speak that much unless i was very familiar with the person i knew.

in the past, i spoke to ppl i didnt know and wasn't in fear vs only speaking to certain people if i feel comfortable if that makes sense. it is a trust issue that i have with people and makes it very hard to even walk up to someone and chat with them like its nothing. i get upset when i see outgoing people doing that daily like it is nothing and that's what i want back my true voice!

i have been speaking to people i can go from outgoing to fear and vice versa. so, i don't know......