I don't feel remose about anything. Its a fluke that I've never been in jail and am instead financially well off....where does that leave me?

You're right that one should not dwell in the past. I've said and done a lot of bad things to a lot of people. It does not keep me up at night. Most people get on my nerves any way. Its the future I worry about. The stakes are higher. I have a lot to loose.

Talking to my therapist and online in this forum helps I think.

<font color=blue> "History shows again and again how nature puts up the folly of men." </font color=blue>