I have become aware of a fear I have and it keeps me from seeking help. Perhaps because in the past (in therapy) in my vulnerable state I've been criticized, etc. I've such a hard time hearing criticism.
The fear I have is a fear of being vulnerable. And so I utilize defenses, to avoid being vulnerable and helpless.
For example, I need help getting my house in order. If I call in cleaning help my helplessness will be exposed.
I need help with parenting my kids, I need some practical strategies for letsay gettin my kid to take her baths, how to have my child stay in bed instead of coming out ten times, how to resolve some of the sibling rivalry. Ok, I've listed threee examples. For me to seek help from a professional would expose my helplessness. I hate being so vulnerable.
I feel so stuck in this position. I want help, but feeling helpless and exposed feels so painful.
Any insight-oriented advice here?
Thank you so much in advance.