(((jax))) I feel for you, doubting the reason behind any love. Sometimes we just have to accept what we get.. and I hope you can be thankful for any love and kindness she does show, even in her own way.

It must be tough to doubt someone's love...and consider "obligational" but I assure you, ppl, even mothers, who don't want to love, don't. Maybe your mom loves but she feels awkward or ashamed or something? IDK. TC!