Welcome to PC (((sammi))) Yes, there are plenty here who understand that. My depression can also be worse at night...in general. I am able to try and distract myself when feeling the worst... perhaps you are prevented from being active at night, and are left alone with your thoughts?

Some ppl have their worst depression upon waking in the morning.

I'm sorry you are feel so sad tonight. Do you have medicine or therapy to help you with your depression?