That's a hard one for a lot of people to understand, but IceCreamKid has a point. Find value in doing something such as charity work. My profession is of a teacher. My first ten years were HORRIBLE. The kids basically beat me up emotionally (and a few tried to physically as well), my mental disability (BPD) constantly got in the way of being effective, and people at my work during my first and second year called me names behind my back, refused to give me a good reference, and took bets on how long I would last until I would quit. When I was out on sick leave with my daughter, I was having problems and they actually took a poll on whether I'd return or not. I know that profession is WAY different but I think the results are the same. I was working my read-end off and no one gave me any credit and wondered when I'd just disappear. I know it's hard, but you have to find value in yourself. If you are proud of your work and it brought in enough money to maintain your lifestyle, that's all that matters. You wouldn't have gotten paid if you hadn't gotten the job in the first place, and you wouldn't be called to do other work if you were looked upon as totally useless. The entertainment business, along with politics, are very rough. People are always trying to put to down and I'm certain you're not the only one in your business who feels that way. See if there's a support group for people in your industry who feel the same way, or a therapist who deals with others who feel like you do. I'm sure you're not alone. In the meantime, you WILL find support here, though I believe it will be difficult to find someone in exactly your situation to talk to.