I texted a friend "Not going Monday, subject is to close to home. Sorry". If I was the parent I wouldn't want someone to risk the same tragedy by attending. Staying alive and out of the hospital is my number one goal. Everyone knows we've been depressed and isolating ourselves. A lot of people here know our dx, our son can't keep his mouth shut, and a handful are very supportive. So I am hoping they'll run interference for us. I don't feel I'm stable enough, given T wanted me hospitalized less then two weeks ago.