My mind is addicted to getting even with my enemies. quote unhappyguy

This is hard to control unhappyguy, you are angry and angry with good reason. I find a good way of lowering that anger is to learn about "what makes these kind of people" there is always a reason for it. People who pick on others just because they are quiet or not like them are just people who have no real "empathy, knowledge of respect for others, and are typically all about themselves" These people are often "terrified of feeling and having compassion" and it can go way back to their childhood and lack of "real nuturing"or they could have been very "spoiled" as a child, given too much and just feel entitled and don't know to have empathy because they don't know what it is to do without.

unhappyguy, it is better to stop thinking you need to "change" yourself, we can not "change our past" the only thing you can do is commit yourself to growing and also to remember that our subconsious consists of what we learn all our lives "including the negetive messages we send ourselves". unhappyguy, you have to make a decision to "care" about yourself and be "your own best friend". You need to give yourself permission to enjoy some of your life and that is not all about "working" either. It is about continuing to grow and find things that you like to do and learn about.

My parents are in their late 80's now and I am middle aged and I think to myself, wow it does go by fast so I better find ways to enjoy life instead of finding ways to think of it as so awful. So don't think about trying to "change" yourself, just let yourself "grow" and really say, "thats ok" with whatever you didn't do exc.

I am working on that myself unhappyguy, I don't always get it, but I am finding that with my efforts to just learn and allow myself to "grow" some, it helps to ease the symptoms of PTSD. I still get triggered even here at PC but I made a decision to grow from whatever I experience and as I mentioned in another thread, its "ok".

My husband does AA and has told me that some people go just for the company and positive thoughts and are not alcoholics. And I understand how it works because if focuses on being OK and not constantly stressing. And, ofcourse taking it one day at a time. That is my own motto now, I think it is a good one for me so that I don't look too far ahead where I might end up getting "stressed". I really try to just say to myself, I am just going to keep "finding myself" and give myself permission to take time. I try not to say I am lost all the time, I try to present some positives for myself. I still have difficult days, but I keep self caring and being patient. I have recognized that I have PTSD, it is real and a challenge and not
"my" fault. I just give myself room to heal now.

(((Hugs)))