WOW! is right "Madre". You have a major problem on your hands. Kudos to you for being that strong. Love drives us to go beyond what we are truely capable of. It's good that you have looked for information, that's a good start, but don't expect anyone else to do things for you. You do need to find a therapist; someone that is an expert in this field, cause it sounds like he has major episodes. It would also be good to look online for a book that explains the illness and a plan to manage it. They are out there. You have been around him long enough to know what his triggers are and when his mood is shifting. Just take a little while and breath. Sounds like you need it. Clear your mind, try to get some good rest and then start laying out a plan. Hang in there.