onlytime - I hate this feeling too! And you described this feeling to a T. I just kind of stare into space. Nothing really holds any meaning for me at the moment. It's like I'm watching someone else's life. It's weird. When I was well into my major depression a few years ago, it didn't feel like this. So this feeling of emptyness is new for me. And I didn't end up going. And I feel like a jerk because I promised that I would. Also, I work with this person so I'll have to see them during the week. I should've just gone.

I don't have a therapist. I need one. I did some digging around online and found some clinics in the area that offer low-cost mental health services nearby. They're sponsored by the state. So wish me luck!

Thank you so much for your response. It's good to know I'm not alone in this feeling.