Thank you all for your support and your advice. It is really helpful to have your point of view. To give you all an update, today was the critical day for me because I told my ex to finalize all communication. No more talking, not even as friends. I am guilty of one thing though, I didn't do this on my own strength. What I was most afraid of, did happen: he casually told me today that he is planning to live together with this other girl to see if they are compatible for a future. I was able to hear something tear inside of me and this screaming pain showered me. You know? So, I used this pain I'm afraid to make him go away. If he hadn't said this to me, I'd still be too chicken to let him go. I love him like a nut. We were great together. I don't understand how and why things happened like this. In any case, mark the day today, cause I had my last conversation with him half an hour ago! I can see me crying for the rest of the day, if not the rest of the week. A part of me is dead.