I don't know what to do. I know the longer I go on eating the low calories each day, the worse it will be. but I've been here so many times, arguing with myself. I know I should eat but part of me still feels like I'll be ugly and fat if I eat, and not eating makes me feel like I have control... and every time I give in, I eat only because I don't want to kill myself! I'm so sick of this. I want something to change, but I don't know how...