I don't know what I can tell you that hasn't been said.
TALK TO YOUR THERAPIST instead of assuming and reading too much into every little thing. She's not a mind reader, you know.

(And maybe learn to be a bit more mature about things and not dismiss people so quickly. As someone once said, "I know this is the Internet, but it doesn't hurt to be nice". Also, more punctuation might make your posts more understandable. English isn't my first language either but at least I make an effort.)