there's another thing.i have a certificate for mental disablity.in earlier years,there were a lot of quarrels between me and my mom,so she sent me into mental hospital several times,afterward,she got me a certificate for mental disability,so as to claim some relieve money which are about 300 a month,so i am registered disable person.my condition has been getting much better since i got my own place apart from my mom's after i got out of the last time hospitalization in 2007.i am now clear about my state,ready to start off,just face a lot of put down from my family.some tough ones.
the thing is that people even from the residence community commitee don't know much about psych knowledge,they think we people have psych problems are violent and dangerous.even though through all this years i have never hurt anyone,just lacking of social skill,but they are ignorant on this area,so there are lots of discrimination in the neighborhood,as i said,even within the help office people in my residence committee.
the thing is also that when i get out to attend an activity or a work,i got signed up with my personel id,on which there is my home address.so it is possible the group i attend would call my residence commitee for some infomation about me,then,bang,they learned i am mental disable,....
so it is another blockade along the way.i asked my mom to cancel it.not only because of the bad reputation,but in itself i am not qualified or fit for the name of a mental disable.i mean sure you can call me a mental patient,but not big to the disable degree,for which you are given a certificate and everyone would know about.you know,she is unwilling to do it.besides that she want me to cower or huddle this life,there is some relieve money.....
idk what to say,i am lost,today's been another tough day.