BlessedRhiannon, that's the kind of arrangement I have with my T--I go more frequently to sessions if hard stuff comes up in my life. It is really nice to be able to have that flexibility. I hope you can go more frequently to therapy for a while to deal with your anxiety and issues right now. Sounds hard! I really related to what you said about avoiding sleep so you don't have to wake up to face the next day. That was my thinking too a few years ago.