I think you have two choices...reasonable choices.
1. don't get you identity and self-esteem self worth from outside sources ...that would allow you to stay in your chosen profession. The good points in that are that you have considerable time and effort invested in your chosen career and one wold assume from info provided that you have had some financial success with this. I eventually considered peer opinion much more important than than anything else in evaluating a career.
2. Reassess your value system and move on to another line of work. This may be better for your soul.