crying sucks. Crying makes me feel like a big baby. Crying is so effing uncontrollable most of the time for me.....and trying to hold back crying is so difficult to do. Especially when u are hurting reaaaalllly bad. I sometimes hide, sometimes keep it all sucked inside myself. It doesn't help, it doesn't do jack, but stay there relentlessly always in my heart. And people think I am weak.