I'm sorry but I can't answer your questions except to tell you that you aren't crazy.
I can make some obvious suggestions. If I were in this position I'd try not to follow through on this current liaison. If the consequences of the last one were so bad that it took years to get over it then it just isn't worth the risk.
Maybe you can sort out your feelings and gender issues with counseling.
That may give you some insights into our sexual orientation and help you to accept and feel okay about it or it may lead to some other resolution.
Good luck on working this out in a way that makes you comfortable with your urges and your sexuality.
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Originally Posted by kjb1985
I posted here a few months ago but not too many people replied..im 26yo male who considers himself straight, ive been with plenty of women and enjoy everything about the female body. however ever since puberty ive had these very strong urges to be with a man. More specifically being a
bottom for an older top. As in, i want to be the girl and more fem. I did experiment once when i was about 19, met a guy off internet, ended up having sex in his car. it felt good, but i didnt once get an erection, infact i asked him to stop and he did...i felt terrible and guilty about myself for YEARS!!!
the urges got less and less but they have been really strong lately. ive been talkin to guy online for awhile now and im not sure if i should go through with it or not..i DONT want to feel that way again, i am a single father and that would make me feel like less of a man in someway, but the urges are so strong i need help!!! will these thoughts go away ever? am i crazy/bipolar/gay/curious/bi or something? i dont know whats wrong with me!
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