I am really sorry you are struggling so much with your career. The Industry is a very tough one. I don't have to tell you
It really is who you know and then multitudes of people surrounding you to keep you propped up (it's like the old-time mob, you are either in or you're out. There is no in-between).
What really matters here, though, is NOT what others write (or say) about you, but what YOU think about YOU. Clearly you are struggling, but is it temporary or are just...done.
The most important thing to ask yourself is:
- Am I selling out? OR
- Am I just frustrated and exhausted at the moment?
I would encourage you to speak with a T to help clarify these things so you can decide your next steps.
If you can look at yourself in the mirror, continue pushing forward and still love what you do, that's all that counts.
Wishing you the best,
Rose