I want to thank you all for your kind words. I am sorry for not replying sooner, but I just couldn't get myself to do it.

Taiba Tanjila - What you said is true about being addicted to depression. I don't think I'm necessarily addicted to it, I think for me it's just so familiar. I hold onto it even though I shouldn't. I guess I'm afraid of how I'll feel if I get 'better,' if that makes any sense.

whimsygirl - I actually have never thought of that, but thank you! I will definitely take it under consideration!

Leed - I have had five therapists so far, and I didn't feel right with any of them. One of them was way too opinionated and just annoyed me to no end, and the others were good but I just didn't feel like they fit. I want to find a new one, but I'm afraid of discussing it with my family. I feel like they'll want to know why and then I'll have to go into detail, which I am not ready for. Congrats on graduating and feeling better! It must feel great!

WNT2bNRML - You're right, and I should know that, but there's still part of me that fears what people will say. I'll take your advice to heart and try my best with it. It'll be difficult, but I have to try.