Ohhh I know its hard to come back mainly where i have to come to i live in illinois and i hate it here with all my heart all i really have here is bad memories of my "father" beating me or trying to kill me or kill my mom or beat my mom and sisters or the bad memories well that is what it really comes down to anywhere i look i think wow is someone watching me its hard and where i was at i want to move to i have that person there and the college i want to go to is there and i think that i should just put my mind on getting a new job with better pay and saving up and just move already because i think that would be the best and maybe that way i could be happy all the time?! who really knows with out a try! right?