Dreamblue, so sorry you are going through this pain all alone! You deserve to be supported. Thankfully, there are other T's out there who are able to be respectful of your needs. Hope you can locate one real quick.
I've recently terminated treatment with my T, when I wasn't getting the support I felt a need for. It's real tough going it alone, and I look forward to meeting my new T shortly. Hopefully still this week.
When you'll have a good experience with another T you will thank yourself for having the courage to walk away from a non-supportive experience and toward one that meets your needs.
Take gentle care!