Finding the light, well it's inside you somewhere, just gotta look for it, and feed it properly to make it grow. If the darkness took over, you probably found it and fed it too.

Maybe the religion you were following wasn't the right fit for you, if you are feeling disillusioned with it ? If you don't have faith with it? Or maybe you just need to find your way back to it. Only you know the answers to these questions.

But there is nothing wrong with taking time out to figure out what path in spirituality is right for you, or even blaze your own path. Nothing wrong with that either, as long as it is what you actually believe inside.