You are such a caring mother! It's wonderful how much you want the best for him. I know it's hard to see our kids go through hard times. It's very heartbreaking! You are right, he will learn about life. Every experience helps us to grow and learn from our mistakes. It's okay, be sad, be angry, because eventually we all learn to be happy--we learn to accept "Life" and continue the search for the ingredients for our growth and independence. Every minute on the clock around the clock is a new experience. What were you doing today at 1:15pm, 23 seconds? At 1:15pm 30 seconds? So much can change-- We can walk out a door, fold a just launderd shirt, an apple can fall from a tree, a bird can mark your car, you can give someone a kiss, you can get a hug, your kids can smile and say, "I love you". Give yourself a hug right now and pretend it's from me. I'm here for you. You'll be okay! Do you have a blood pressure monitor at home? If you don't have one, a lot of offices, hospitals or maybe even EMT's will check a blood pressure for free. How about doing some cooking? I bet your family would love some fresh baked brownies or cookies for a surprise dessert! Show your son (and rest of family) how much you love him. It will help the both of you go through these changing times and you will both soon feel better. Hats off to you for being such a great Mom!