littlelady1560,

To answer your question, no, it is not wrong. I'm sorry that your family looks at it the way they do. Many people look at it that way, and many people hold all their feelings back, just like you. But, it will be more difficult and painful for you if you continue to hold all of your emotions and feelings inside you like that. I know, I've had a nervous breakdown and I'm 22 years old.

I have also been handed basically everything to me in my life, including my first car, first and current job, and many other things. Like you, I have "nothing" to complain about so it seems. Still, something is eating at my soul. There IS something that is making you feel the way you do, and as Leed said, you need to get to the bottom of it. You aren't stupid. And nothing is your fault. I don't know that it is possible or why anyone would fake being depressed. If your feelings are real to you, then that is all that matters, nothing else. You should try to get some professional help if you can, help from people that study in emotions and the brain more than just normal people.

I am very alone too, even when people say they are there for me. To me, when they say that, it feels like they aren't REALLY there, I'm sure you know this feeling. It then makes it even worse because you wish you could just say something but you can't make yourself say it. But please, will you PM me, or just let us know how you are doing sometimes? You can tell me anything, ask me anything, any time.