I'm gonna describe something that I deal with.Maybe some people will find it a bit of funny but in reality it's not.:/ I can't find something similar or anyone who can relate to that.Well,I am obsessed.But as I said this kind of obsession is different.I am obsessed with a foreign country.Now you'll tell me: but it's not bad to like an other country.And I'll answer you no,it isn't.But there is huge difference between "liking sth" and "being obsessed"with sth.Obsession is a passion and passion is never good.And I feel that I don't just like this country,I am obsessed.
Now I will expain: It's been 5 years and all I wish is I could live there.Or sometimes I wish i were half of this nationality.No I don't like mine anymore.Every time,I try to find people from there and when I success(I've found many),I become very clingy and emotional dependent to them and it's annoying.I've learned everything,the history,the language,the culture,even their national anthem!! it's funny I know but it's true.Sometimes I go to chat rooms and I pretend that I am a person who lives there.Kidding people is bad I know,but it became an addiction.When I was younger I also told my friend a big lie.I also sometimes wear clothes with the colors of it's flag.I am really "in love"with this country and it's painful.... and I don't know if it's normal anymore.It's obvious that I don't like the life I live here.I am not ok with who I am and where I am now.It's like I'm living in a prison and this country will be my sign of freedom.Travelling there is my biggest dream,but liking it there since I live somewhere else,is my worst nightmare. I don't know what to think anymore but I feel really obsessed.I know when I just admire a country it's different cause I've admired many countries but it's not the same. What's your opinion? I don't even know if I want this to stop