Hi littlelady.....I'm so sorry you're suffering, and dealing with loved ones who do not respond in a caring way sure can add to the sadness. Have you talked to your doctor about the things you're telling us here? If you haven't, I hope you will soon, as a medical doctor is the one who can begin to provide a diagnosis and then create a treatment plan to go forward....possibly to include medications to help if you suffer from depression and ~or other mood disorders, perhaps psychotherapy, referral to a psychiatrist. All possibilities, but it all depends on your specifics. A few little things I need to mention. You refer to reaching out to your family as "caving". That's so sad to me, as it implies that there is something weak? wrong? with doing so.....not true. If you are going through all this, through no fault of your own, there is NOTHING wrong with reaching out, regardless of the way others may respond. You say that because of having some things handed to you, you have no reason to be depressed? Although it can be more complicated than this, depression is in part a physical illness, caused by abnormalities in the levels of certain chemicals in your brain (neurotransmitters).....and the way they are working. This has NOTHING to do with what you have been "handed" in life, any more than it would be related to having any other disease. I hope you are not being hard on yourself for things you had no choice in. Warm Wishes ~whimsy ps.....Have you done some reading ~research on the basics of depression? There are lots of helpful books out there, and tons on info on line