Thanks very much, everybody.

CgRgSm, you are very wise. I really appreciate your words. I try to remember exactly what you said, that I did the best I could with the resources (emotional/mental) that I had at the time. But sometimes it's hard to believe or remember that, so it really helps a lot to hear it from somebody else; thank you for that.

junkDNA, listening is so valuable. Thank you. :-)

Lee, thanks for sharing your personal experience and thoughts. I guess I was really reaching out for empathy, so I appreciate your posting again. I do know depression strikes the successful as well as the unsuccessful; I just wish I were the former. I need to learn to accept my life. That's a big one. If I can do that, then I can work on gratitude.

I'm entering my 4th week of Remeron (15mg) and 3rd week of Zoloft (25 mg). So far it's helped the anxiety but ... I just hope it'll work for the depression after a few more weeks. I've never had a lot of luck with therapy, but I did just call a low-cost therapy clinic so hopefully I'll have an appointment by the end of the week.