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Originally Posted by Tinkerbell.
I am not a nice person at all, I am useless I am ugly and dirty. I did see my Pdoc today and saw my T yesterday, My pdoc was hopeless, I told him exactly how I was feeling and could I have a CPN he just said that therapy was best for me, I know maybe he is right but I never ask him for anything, Maybe if I take an overdose then they will take notice?
I am annoyed not just with them but with myself for being so honest, He just prescribed me sleeping tablets, I don't want to feel like a zombie, I feel bad enough as it is.
I have no fight left in me. My T I see again on Monday, I really don't like bothering her, she gave me a load of numbers to call if I need help but I am not sure if I am worth it.
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((((Tink)))) I know you are having a REALLY rough go of it right now. I am so sorry you are hurting so much.
I cannot say I know exactly how you feel cuz that would be horribly presumptuous, but I can relate. It hurts. Everything hurts. It hurts all over.
I KNOW that you are strong. Stronger than you give yourself credit for and that you can - and will -get through this.
Honey, you have been through so much. Truly. It is good that you are speaking, writing, communicating. Get out your feelings, say whatever it is to say, to whomever you need to say it to...whatever you need to do to keep moving forward.
I know you feel absolutely horrendous right now and it's painful but we are here and we care lots and are encouraging you to just keep going. If it's only an inch. That is OK.
Keep posting and let us know how you are doing. You are not alone and you will get through this.
Rose