(((littlebutt)))

The problem with self-medicating is that the issues causing you pain aren't being dealt with. They're merely being ignored for now. When you do stop drinking, those underlying issues will still be there (probably with some new prob's as a result of your alcoholic tendencies) waiting to be dealt with.

I'm not saying that I'm perfect in dealing with my issues ~ I'm not! But, I do know that using alcohol and/or drugs to make it through is avoidance. Those emotions will be there when you do stop self-medicating.

I'm sorry for your pain and desire to escape the ongoing struggles. I can relate. Best wishes sent your way!