I would recommend a book my T suggested to ME three years ago and it has done wonders in helping me release my unresolved wounds.... check it out in the Rate & View section - it is called: Feelings Buried Alive Never Die.

AND - I use Celexa to help calm my nerves / anxiety..... so maybe talk to your doctor about getting on some medicine - at least 2 months before the event is to take place.
Valerian works wonder to - it is OCD (natural herb) that can be purchased at your local store and it safe to take in most cases.... I use it in between Celexa, when needed.

LoVe,
Rhapsody - ((( hugs )))