Vader, please don't apologize. We're here for you.

I am sorry this happened to you. But please, try not to kick yourself over it. The key here is separating yourself from these two, which might be a matter of simply severing any and all possible contact. I don't mean to say that you can't be friends with someone you broke up with, but try to be wary of ex's wanting to inexplicably "hang out" or things like that.

I do understand what you mean about the pain of giving all of your heart to someone. It is simply agonizing to lose that connection. But you have to understand, if it was lost, there's a reason for it. Sometimes that reason can be fixed, but more often than not if it causes the relationship to end, there's a good reason for it.

I am rather curious...do you think your desire for sex can be perhaps related to your desire for that connection? You seem from your post to be upset over the loss of that as much as you are for slipping. I am wondering if the two could be connected.

But Vader, please relax. It's going to be okay, promise. Slipping in trying to fix something about ourselves is hardly ever a perfect process. There is going to be bumps. The key is having the perseverance to pick ourselves up and keep going down that road.

Stay strong Vader. We're all in your corner.

Hugs,
Harley