I have been working and working on my anxiety and just when I think things are going great, it happens! A trigger comes along and seems to shoot me down.
I have recently changed jobs and was loving my new job until I got into a really anxious situation. Then, like Pavlov's dog, I get back into my anxious thinking. I am scared at nights to be alone. My wife works nights alot so I spend the night alone and just try everything to make the night last as long as possible. I feel that if it does then tomorrow won't come soon. I worry over not getting enough sleep and all sorts of other items that I seem to just come up with.
I know that I need to stay grounded in the present and concentrate on the here and now, but am having a hard time.
I seem to vent this all on my wife, crying at nights sometimes crying till I can't cry anymore. I just wish it would come back up that darn hill again.
My T keeps giving me great coping mechanisims, but I don't want to cope, I want to get rid of these feelings. I don't want to have to do deep breathing, I want the situation not to cause that anxiety.
I am really not looking for answers or sympathy, but needed to vent, to unload, to cry a little.
Thank you. I learn quite a bit reading your posts here. I know I don't post alot, but I lurk and read. Thank you for your ears.