My instinct, which isn't really worth a whole lot because I am not you, is that the next step for you is to learn to tolerate these more intense feelings. I feel like the others who say that a slip is not a tragedy or an excuse to more broadly revert to old patterns.

It's like I do with my 11 year old, in developmental stages, particularly with jumping to his requests. When he was 2, I said, wait one minute and I will get or do X for you. Now I say, wait 20 minutes and then I will be able to do that with you, or for you. Just because you are feeling different things or they feel stronger doesn't mean you can't handle them. You are stronger than you were, you can sit with them longer. I think you need to build up your strength more and see if you can sit with it longer until you seek relief by contacting your T.

Also, you may be able to tolerate misery. I think it will give you important information if you sit with it and let it inform you rather than pushing it away by going for the instant fix or gratification of your old patterns. The same is true of body sensations, consider that they may be coming to the surface to teach you something.

You are continuing to move forward, even if it seems like you are not. Nothing is wasted and progress is rarely linear. Take good care.