Thinking I want to just shut down know. Done this so many times shut down. in all the rehab i'v been to. I never talk much when i went for Eating Disorder i go numb. And yes i know i get in chat and babble all the time. But when it comes to a hard topic i freeze. The reason I named my self avoice was because i wanted to be able to get that little voice back that i lost as a child. It makes me mad when someone that has never met me write something on the internet what they think of us.