Hi Rainbow,

I agree with the others. You are NOT a failure! You have been doing very hard work on yourself! I am proud of you!

The ironic thing is that progress doesn't always feel good. But as you move through your painful issues and grow, you will feel stronger bit by bit. It will get easier to learn patience, and to tolerate painful emotions. It won't feel this bad always. It will get easier.

I'm glad your t gave a short reply. I think she is doing her very best to help you, wants to see you grow, but in no way does she care any less about you. She wants to see how far you can stretch your wings. But if/when you truly get beyond your own ability to cope, she is there.

Hang in there!

Peaches