((((Avoice))),

I am sorry that you experience other people misunderstanding you and poking at your pain. I get that myself and I always struggle with it and I get very frustrated.

People often do not understand how someone can be so strong and independant sometimes and yet have a lot of hurt inside as well. I get that alllll the time.
What I "can" tell you is that if you finally open up and address that child in a "safe" environment where you can be validated and even respected for what strength you did manage to gain in your life, it will help you heal.

I can relate to that feeling of just wanting to sometimes shut down for a while. I fight against that feeling everyday. And I can't seem to explain it to my family either without feeling frustrated or that I am only going to make things worse for myself.

You have every right to be angry and want justice and to be validated as much as you need. And you also have every right to "heal" as well and be loved and love yourself inspite of the bad that happened to that little girl who had no way of truely protecting herself.

I understand the challenge avoice, I am on that journey myself and it is such a challenge, I hear you. You are not alone, I didn't have the same history but I have a very troubling history myself.

(((Gentle kind hugs from me to you avoice))))
Open Eyes