Hmm I finally ( yet again ) got a hold of my ex T. ( Canīt even be bother with the whole story again ...But it is not about her ignoring me or paperwork or ignoring me this time..LOL
Okey so after that whole ignoring me yet again for three months in a row she finally called me.... I donīt recommend anyone having a couple of classes of wine and then answering the phone when it is your T calling.
I was not drunk.Just been out with a friend and "tipsy" enough to tell her how I felt....
...That I was angry ( furious) with her and sad. I could not even speak normally out of anger and because I was so surpriced she even called back ( Oh well and the wine).Talked to her in a somewhat negative tone about her responsisibility as a T/PDOC and was a bit harsh.
First she sounded suprised ( I have never been angry or negative towards her before)
Then she was kind of cold and just said take care in a " I donīt care" sort of way. ( I donīt think she had seen my reaction coming and I oh well
would not really let her speak,so maybe that was just her way to end the conversation to not stir up things any further.
I have been a " I feel great client" for a year. Not much of a "talker" same old boring stuff week after week...would not let her in really or at least show negative emotions.
Now appart from being embarressed for they way I talked to her, I am wondering if maybe I should go back and this is when the real therapy work or the next step starts..work through a rupture and not just quit on bad terms?
Does that even make sense or am I in denial ?
(To tired to worry about spelling or gramma ( as usual ) Take it or leave it)
