Thanks guys maybe I am in denial ...I would not be surpriced if thatīs a fact

Donīt know....
Just a never ending transference I will get over sooner or later.
I am for ever grateful for your support/feedback in here. I am " a slow learner " at times....but it means alot to me.
For those who remember I just have to share...reason why the paperwork was not filled this time......and the answer is...*drumroll*.....She did not know what to write

This is a highly proffessional T AND Pdoc who supervice and teach other Tīs and socialworkers etc.
I donīt buy that explanation one bit, but maybe it does explain why I am a more "mental" and confused that when I got there at times. Somethings wrong with the whole picture.