I don't think I've ever been so unsure of myself in my life as I am right now. It has been happening since therapy started, but is so much more intense and noticeable the last few months.

Before therapy, I may have felt this same lack of confidence, but I was able to cover it up. I was able to bs my way through life, I guess...portraying a certainty. I may have even convinced myself it was true. If I was having a discussion and someone argued against my point, I'd have no trouble collecting my thoughts and plowing through with a response even if I was not 100% sure I was right. I feel that I've lost that ability.

I don't know what I believe in anymore. I don't think I believe in myself. So much of therapy has been revealing my (apparently) distorted thoughts or behaviors that I think it's caused (or at least contributed greatly) to this.

I feel so uncomfortable offering ideas in grad school, and I often berate myself after. I feel so inadequate at work...like everyone is probably working ten times faster than me.

I don't even know what I want out of this post. I'm even unsure of that.