Hi Rainbow
You didn't blow it at all. I do that kind of therapy and it often leaves you feeling in a bit of a mess. I so feel for you as I too have been trying not to email, but my t says that is my thing not hers and that she is there. If you need to call her do or she wouldn't have offered. In my experience therapists rarely offer something they don't mean. You sound like you have been really brave and sometimes taking a risk in the session makes us feel worse, but hopefully this will all pay off for you. It is just working out how to cope while it does that is so tricky. Am thinking of you. Hang on in there