Hi Rainbow
I have been reading your threads and I don't really have much to offer as you have gotten lots of feedback and I have never done DBT or any of that. One thing that you said though I want to comment on.
In one of your replies above you said "I don't want to be miserable."
The thing is honestly no one wants to be miserable but it isn't a permanent condition. You need to learn to tolerate the negative feelings and trust that they will not last forever. I would guess that after you learn to tolerate them that it will become more manageable. I wish you luck in all of this.