Hi tricia...I had to google SARC. Good thing to help out with. The 22nd is a ways away. I hope you feel better and make it there. I have at times been in a bad zone for days as well. But I find they go as easily as they come. I hope this one passes soon. I know everything is feeling wrong but it's not. You're having a bad spell of time. It isn't always as bad as this is it. Just realize that the intensity will lessen. Then you'll regain some strength. And then... the best thing would be to do the SARC thing like you planned. Don't give any bad feelings a chance to return as strong. Once you get back to more your normal the volunteer thing will be easier. I'm sure of that. I figure you do a fair amount of things probably when not feeling really low. Staying busy when feeling abit better always seems to help. I find it tough to deal out hugs in real life let alone online but here's a bunch. They're all sincere, the whole bushel. *grin*Just ride it out Tricia. It'll give you a break soon.