I'm sorry miswimmy
I know you're angry at your T (and if that's how you feel, that's okay!) but everything you've told me shows that your T is one of the good ones, and is committed to helping you to feel better. Please don't forget all the positive things you've told me about her.
Maybe talk to her about how you're feeling when you next see her?
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It is not how long the star shone but the brightness of the light that will be remembered...