I guess it's more along the lines of agoraphobia - being afraid of situations where escape is difficult.

Something I've been wanting to try for the past few months is stand-up paddle boarding (if you haven't heard of it, look it up, it seems really interesting!). I decided to go for it. I spoke to an instructor, and we're meeting up today, later in the evening. My anxiety has kicked in, and the back of my mind keeps telling me to call and cancel.

I just keep thinking of all the "what if"s - what if I'm far out on the water and have a panic attack, what if I want to leave early, etc. I think what exacerbates this for me is that I'm usually less anxious when I'm just meeting someone somewhere instead of traveling with them, but for this I'm meeting up with him at his shop, and then I think we're traveling to this lake together.

I hate myself for even thinking about bailing on this. The weather is supposed to be beautiful, and it's hard to say how much time is left in this season when the temperature is going to be high enough to comfortably hop into the water. The class itself is only supposed to be for about an hour and a half, but I guess from the outside it seems like a long time when you're anxious about it.

Gah. Wish me luck!