I have bounced around a few community colleges. I got my AA. I stopped going about 15 years ago. I am 42. Every one in my family has a BA but me. I feel ashamed about it.

I have always had this idea that 4 year school would be too much for me. I am not very good at time management nor do I care to be. I keep thinking the instructors will be inhospitable. I wonder if they wi11 use such huge high falutin vocabularies I won't know what they are saying. In tern, I will look like an idiot for not understanding. Also, I have major depression.

I am not sure my paper writing is up to snuff for a four year. I keep hearing it is "rigorous" at college. That is scary. Many people have derided community colleges as stupid and four year as the real deal. I don't feel adequately prepared.