Welcome 2BKnown .....sorry that you are having such a hard time with finding a Therapist...especially when you feel yourself slipping into depression..you can try a couple of the web sites that offer resources with Therapists names and number who may be in your area, and that may specialize in Dissociative disorders, Sidran, and ISSD, may be able to help you locate one nearby, and the local state chapter of NAMI can sometimes help too..

Again, sorry and I hope you find someone soon..its tough being out on your own when you need to make some sense of whats going on inside....take care..