((((telb)))))

Oh yes, I almost made a post like this recently...

You are strong, you've made it this far and you're going to keep doing it because you CAN NOT quit. You're a wonderful person, maybe with some regrets about the past, but who doesn't? What matters is today, and tomorrow ...

You took the first step. You admitted that there are things that need to be changed in order for you to be happy.

Alright, so do this ... instead of just becoming sober, try going for a day, a few days, whatever it takes so you KNOW you want it, you want to change and are willing to put in the effort. How about finding a support group in your area like AA?

As for the moving out thing, do you have the tools to move out? Another place you could go, some people you could depend on, a job or enough money to afford a place? Work on those.

Any large decision or task to complete is just a series of really small things to undertake, its just a matter of getting to the point where you can see what needs to be done ... and then comes the task of DOING it!

Like me as an example (sorry, mini-example, won't hijack for long). My large task is that I want to be happy, really happy. My smaller tasks? I thought of it like this ... what would I have to do to be happier? Who would I be able to enlist to help me to be happier as a support network? What makes me happy? What doesn't? Whats stopping me from starting to be happy? .... and I came down to the two most basic "stepping stones" that I have to do in order to be happy ... I have to believe that I'm allowed to be happy and that I'm worth it, and I have to be willing to put in the effort to get there even though it will be hard and I'll probably want to quit a few times.

(Here's to hoping you understand that!!)

You're not asking a lot, good for you for reaching out, and asking for support when you need it. Sometimes that's someone's "big goal/task" ... and that can take a LOT of work to get to that point!!!

Take care of yourself, and I'm a PM away if you need anything. *hugs*