Hello everyone. My friends call me Gypsy, Blu is for depression and Rose id for the hopes
Of a beautiful day. Corny I know.

Anyway, I have three different chronic pain conditions, Fibro, perphril neuropathy and the worst
Is symptomatic Tarlov cysts in my sacrum and spinal cord. On top of that, I am now
Very depressed and daydream a lot about finding ways to end my life but yet trying to
Find ideas that would lessen the hurt on my adult children. I have two boys who
No longer live with me and they each have a wonderful life in another state now.

I sleep most of the day, and find a bit more relief at night time when its a bit cooler and quieter.
There are days now that I do not get out of bed except for potty breaks. Food I could
Care less of and have lost about 50 pounds over the last year from this. Yeahh weight loss, sucks
To lose it in this manner.

I take pain killers and cymbalta for the neuropathy but it does nothing for my
Depression. How do you deal with your chronic pain? I surely would like to know.
I have never been depressed believe it or not. It took 4 years of chronic pain
To get me to this place in my life.

I guess I need a friend. Someone whom I can talk to and help them too. Cause ever
Friend I had left me about 3 years ago except 1 she's my best friend but lives in another
State. I don't talk with her often because I'm sure she's sick of hearing about my ailments, ya know?
My husband has basiclly given up on me, he leaves me alone except when he
Wishes to yell at me for whatever. He broke his leg and I have cared for him everyday, like
Putting on his brace boot twice a day right? But when I asked him for something
Simple he blows up at me like I am asking for his kidney. I don't understand it.

I yelled back, sent me into a crying fit. I feel so lonely and unwanted. On top of all
This crap, my dad died in july, I just don't think I can handle anymore